Psalm 62

O' Father, My soul belongs to you, you alone
For you chose with mercy, to save me
Your arms shelter the blast of my fears
Steadfast love for thousands of years

Father, I am nothing with out you,
I yearn to bask in your goodness
You Alone, have given me solid ground
A Beautiful Grace that is so profound

In your palms, I shall not be greatly shaken
I'm dependent on your hand, Father
Trapped between an enemy and a sea
You Alone, Have already set me free

Standing on the waves, in a great storm
I sink in fear, begin to drift with the winds
But you are my refuge, my rock, my glory
O' Lord, the sovereign author of my story

I lay my fears and worries before You
Joy in my salvation, my heart is Yours!
My trust is upon my Rock, upon You wholly
You are my Salvation, My joy is in You fully

Those who balance their hope on others
Are unstable walls, they will be shaken
Disappointment will fall on the false power
We're dependent on You, every waking hour

All I have is You Father in Heaven
Rest my trusts on your Mercy and Grace
With Your power and love, I've been freed
O Father, You alone, is all I will ever need

To My Beautiful Children

I’m not the father I can be

My thoughts, a stupid poem

Memories cutting away

I just wish you were home

Tonight I cleaned your room

An empty bed, dusty toys

A smile to catch the tears

I wake up, maintain poise

His giggles echo in the room

Her smile brightens my day

Joyful hearts and a silly daddy,

Who is trying not to slip away

All I want is to love my God

And be the father he is to me

To guide you my children

To the one who died on the tree

But tonight, I sit here in self loathe

The choices I made, Godly Sorrow

But God in his Mercy, saved me

We shall not worry about the morrow

We have our prayers, trust in God!

In Prayer I can be right there

Trust the Lord, my children

Do not regret, or despair

At night when you miss me

Turn in prayer to our Lord

Seek first his kingdom, trust him!

As your daddy has every tear poured

Know too, that there is Jesus

Salvation by Mercy and Grace

Follow him, my beautiful children

He’ll rescue you from the darkest place

O Blessed be the name of the Lord

He gives and he takes away

Give yourselves to him children

Let your hearts choose to stay!

My Children, I love you

Surround yourself in his Glory

He brings peace and hope,

A happy ending to this story

The Painting

Upon the canvas

Flows an array of color

I gaze with utter passion

Bloated with intricacies

Worked in a precise fashion

The piece is alive

His brush bleeds, as it glides

The colors breathe and dance

Sovereign Perfection

I cannot break my glance

The Work is unfinished

Hurry, fill in the hideous blank!

Do Not PANIC!! Stay Calm,

Your Canvas, but not your picture

The Brush is in the Creator’s Palm

The Source

You said I couldn’t do it

You said there was no way

It’s to bad you were wrong

Cause here I’m standing today

My emotions are truly naked

My fears, I wish them away

Anxiety is eating at my heart

But still, here I’m standing today

The Father’s love I have found

The Father’s word, final say

His Grace and Mercy gives

the strength to stand, everyday

The Decision

An appreciated understanding

I have more than I ever deserve

This day, I follow in the Light

Grace alone, I had not the nerve

Broke free from the haunter’s grip

These words are not for me to boast

They are just a testimony of Mercy

They’re for the one’s he loves Most

Evil’s laughter at your shoulder

For you, he was flogged and did bleed

To Enter His Fathers Heavenly kingdom

You must let fruit produce from this seed

You can walk prideful fearing darkness

Opening your soul to Satan’s heist

Or you can walk humbly in the bright

Giving your heart to your savior Christ.

The Cross is Core

As the World is sure to spin

I try to fight, stand still

Calvary I yearn to orbit

Things don’t go my way

My sin weighs me down

I fall below the surface

By Mercy, I won’t drown

I move slow, often confused

My heart tested, your hand seen

I can’t lift the weight of my life

But I try, I try to be tough

We cannot hide from your eyes

We are weak, but you are strong

Strength in Grace, make us wise

Kneeling before the Cross

Why was I lavished in this gift?

Your word whispers as I read

Complicated dreams You bring!

I don’t deserve anything at all

Patiently and with love You give

Before the Cross, I cannot Fall!

The Wretched Beautiful Path

Children, take your fathers hand

Walk beside me in the light,

There is a lot to learn and understand

Away from the shadow’s fright

A wretched beautiful path to follow

Where the Lord will calm your fears

Accept His Love, do not live hollow

It took your father many years

of walking in the darkness, lost

and alone, filled with selfish loath

to see the Lord’s love and what it cost.

Now with Salvation, I walk in growth.

See, Gods Love is not given in preaching

Instead through our Savior’s life and death

And it is by the King of Kings’ teaching

we know God loves us in every breath.

For he sent to earth his only begotten Son

A man who was perfect in everyway.

The Savoir of Sins loved all, hated none

Spread the word of His Father everyday

Only to be brutally slain upon the Cross

and three days later, he rose to life again

Proving his death a perfect plan, not a loss

Jesus paid it all, so we can be delivered from sin

Walk with me in the light; it will lead us to Grace

I’ll guide you to HIS Mercy, teach you HIS Love

Until the day I meet The Father face to face.

Then stay in the Light, I will watch proudly from above

Salvation’s Plantation

By Whom were you planted to the field

Is it by Son of Man and his Good Seed?

Or Could it be the Enemies’ seed you Yield?

None-the-less, we grew on earth as brothers

Our Diversity left the Servants to ponder!

Field of Wheat and Weed, what will we do?

HE had the answer, our destination in yonder

And So on we grew together, until Harvest.

And then, the Angels came to down to Gather

Will you rest in the barn, or burn in a bundle?

Hear Him and Repent, His Blood you may Lather

Stand As Wheat, and Shine in His Kingdom!

Salvation’s Journey

Only Darkness laid ahead

My Spirit stood, not alive, but dead

But it was Destiny that heard

and fiercely danced to the beat of my heart

A loving, new path opened for me

Golden fingers laid in the horizon, I could see

Darkness was now choking on HIS word

Here, life did not end; it was a place to start

Only Blinding Light lies in my path

Darkness fled my destiny, fearing HIS wrath

My spirit now breathes, free as a bird

leaving in the dust, a distorted life that was so tart

HIS gift I accepted, Mercy and Grace

brings a Smile, a new emotion to my face

HE is my Shepherd, I follow in his herd

A new path my spirit walks and will never part

Our King

John baptized him

From Heaven Came a Voice

“this is my son, whom I love”

His Death was my Choice

“But I tell you: Love your enemies”

That you may be sons of the Father

Love for all is what he taught

I killed him! Who did he Bother?

By examples of birds

He taught us not to worry

“Each day has enough trouble”

His Death, a sad story

To a man with leprosy

"I am willing," he said. "Be clean!"

The man was cured instantly

I nailed him to the cross to be seen.

The Crowd thought the girl was dead

Asleep He Said she wasn’t dead

As the scoffed, she got up

And for me, this Man Bled

He taught by Parables

A field of Weeds and Wheat

Which Seed are you?

He Died, by deceit

Five Loaves and Two Fish

Over 5000 men were fed

With plenty left over

Yet, we let him hang till dead

He walked on the Surface of Water

"Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid."

To Peter who walked out to him

His Death, His Father’s will, he obeyed

A Fig tree had no fruit

"May you never bear fruit again!"

The Tree withered

I killed this man with my sin

Our sin, the nails that hung him to the cross

By the Father’s Will, Jesus Dies

The Ultimate Sacrifice, saving us

Three days later when He Did Rise!

Nevaeh

I sit alone; I try to understand the pain

Why do I only get to hear your voice?

I don’t look at our situation with disdain

I understand, this was no one’s choice

Sometimes I cry, kneeling by your bed

and other times I smile at the memories

Like the funny little things you’ve said

or giggles on a swing in a summer’s breeze

Anyway, Daddy’s ready to dry the tears

A perfect plan, difficult to understand, maybe,

but The Lord has calmed daddy’s fears

I’m coming for you, I miss you baby

My Prayer, My Confession

I try so hard to do the right thing

My trials are a painful, high winds

Rocking my ship amongst heavy drifts

As rays of sun burst through the clouds

Your light is upon me through the rifts

I just want to walk away

This wasn’t the plan I had

My heart is stone, a dead weight

A wall, blocking the flood of love

Your Son took my place, my fate

I sit, whining and complaining

Frustrated in this stupid poem

Just words of my self pity at a loss

A registered thought occurs

Where is my joy, is it with the Cross?

O Father! Have mercy on me!

For I know I wasn’t the one forsaken

Yet, sinfully, I’m impatient to your will

Death on the Cross, Your love for us!!

My life is the craft of your skill

My Own Conviction

I lust for more

A Loving wife

Not to be poor

HE gave HIS life

I wash in Blood

My Life not deserved

I’m filthy as mud

Yet, eternity reserved

Forgetful, I tend to be

Future, I shouldn’t lust

My Savior bled for me

God’s love I shall trust

Love forever in my heart

As I construct my diction

I’ll let the Gospel start

to reveal my own conviction

Lynix: with him I am well pleased

The sky is big,

the world is new

Curiosity searches

Behind eyes so blue

Little tiny fingers

Big manly feet

Everlasting energy

Each heart beat

The world is yours

Walk in the light

Direction by Faith

Prepare to fight

I will be the Lead

Teach you his word

Learn His Love for

Every stone and bird

And As the Father’s

Voice came from above

“This is my son,

Whom I love”

Let the Battle Begin

Bleeding day’s and broken nights

Shattered dreams, Nightmare’s frights

I am but a man, led by selfish fear

Forgetful I am, of the love that’s near

When I was far, far away, he chose me

A free gift given, I don’t deserve thee

I have seen the mighty work of his hand

Yet I let, Fear rise up and take the stand

Oh Forgive me, my everlasting Lord

Armed with your shield and sword

I’ll stand, I will fight this fear of man

My faith is in you, you’ll unfold the plan

Intersection of Life and Direction

Where do we go from here, the lights are all green

I was just a boy, lost in a wide open field

Now my direction is clear, the light I’ve seen

Clear but still ambiguous, which paths do I yield

I have feelings I never thought I could have again

Love and Happiness, just to name a few

Life is good, but I am still not perfect, I still sin!!!!

Stay on the path of Repentance, His Mercy is true!

My selfish lusts do not always seem to align with the Plan

When do I make a move, and what steps do I take?

He knows the answer to this, even before he created man

So always seek Him for wisdom, Grace is not fake

A perfect plan, undying love, these thoughts hard to grip

Life’s twist and turns are perfect? This I’ve never understood.

It’s not about understanding; it’s about enjoying the trip

Put your faith into His direction, because friends, God is good!!!

I’m Just a Man

Oh my look at the glowing clock

Time does really manage to fly

Faster and Faster each tic-toc

There is so much to do before I die

Things I want to plan out in my life

But such a short time before death

Yet, my career, my kids, a wife?

Accomplishments before my last breathe

But whose accomplishments are these?

Father! Forgive me and my selfish lust

Did you not feed the birds, water the trees?

All this Time, it should be you I trust

I have no reason for my pity and fears

You know the next step, all planned out

You’re my love, through smiles and tears

Such Faithfulness Father, how could I doubt

Guide me Father, Give me Strength to learn

For I am on this side of Heaven, I’m Weak

It is your Love and plan I desperately yearn

Break my pride, make me humble and meek

O Father, I looked away from you in Hate

Yet you led me to the Cross, showed me Love

Salvation for me, I may now pass Heaven’s Gate

Spread my wings and fly, free like the dove

For what good is a wife, if not right before God?

This is wisdom you have brought to me by Grace

Unless it’s is pure and right before you, its fraud

Bring me to the Cross, for it’s my sin I must face

Father I cannot do this alone, unless you’re with me

Guiding me on every step, every leap and bound

I say again, you were there for every bird, every tree

For this is in the word, which is the Truth and it is sound

You have tested my Heart Father, and showed your hand

And for that I Thank you, you have kept me in the light

I don’t deserve this life or your Love, this I understand

I remind my self of the Main Thing day and night

You have compassion for me, You have taken the lead

You invented Love, Walked me down the aisle as your bride

You Overlooked my sin, Yet watched your son bleed

Blood I wash in, take me to the Cross where your son died

I bow down before your son, the perfect man, the almighty king

Bring me face to face with my sin, and show me your plan

Let me one day dance around your throne, rejoice and sing

Forgive me Father, Guide me Father, for I am just a man

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I was lavished in a light

But it did not shine bright

Illuminated not from humility

But Pride’s bulb, crippled my ability

To see the truth, Now in Despair

Because I thought Life wasn’t fair

My faith Shaken so weak

Now my future seemed so bleak

Pride cut me, let my heart bleed

But Hope from a fruitful seed

When he who washed me clean

Plucked me from a worldly scene

Truth delivered from Mercy and Grace

Now it’s Calvary I shall embrace

Pride’s hunger and my heart’s lust

Consumed me, but Who Can I trust

But you Jesus who through every trial

stood by my side, every aching mile

The hole in my heart has been filled

By your wounds, I have been healed.

I wonder why…

I’m falling asleep

Only to wake more tired

Another nightmare

Drowning despair

Crawl to my corner

Safe in Solitaire

Are we ever really alone?

His voice now drone

Soaked in self loathe

At the very pit of pride

Yeah, fear of man

Is it calamity’s plan?

Shadowed hours

Walk in clouds of gray

I do not see sunlight

By grace I still fight

O’ Lord must you be silent?

Father, have you left?

Do you hear my cry?

Painful Sorrow, I wonder why…

Hebrews 12

Have I built enough endurance?

The race’s path to Calvary

Do I carry my cross as I should?

Pain and Trials, I wonder who could?

Sin gives way to weary and a faint heart

For the set before him, he endured the cross

My resistance has not caused blood to be spilled

Though his blood that washes me, I am healed

When disciplined, do not loathe thyself

Or grow weary when rebuked

For if a father truly loves his son

Then the work of discipline must be done

For in this work, my endurance only builds

O Father, thank you for treating me like your Son

It often seemed painful, I often did gripe

Though it yields righteous fruit, so sweet, so ripe

I lift up my arms, I strengthen my weak knees

My walk with the Lord shall not be lame

Strive for peace; see that others join the race

So that all shall see the beauty of God’s grace

He Will…

Fear is the anchor in my stomach

Hope floats, but sin is not buoyant

All I want to do is just swim

Yet the anchor pulls me down

He will not let me drown

Idolatry is the death in my eyes

Dead to sin, live to righteousness

All I want to do is see

Grace brings forth Light

He will bring me sight

Pride is the stumble in my walk

My direction is crippled, not lost

All I want to do is find my way

Calvary’s Compass, the path is clear

He will forgive Pride, Idolatry, and fear!

Grace Delivered

Why am I broken?

Why does my heart ache?

Grace Delivered

My pride did break

Why do I endure trial

Where is your Good Hand?

Grace Delivered

Today, in Peace I stand

Why does it have to be?

Why can it not be my way?

Grace Delivered

Not tomorrow, focus on today

Why do I have to fight?

Why a shield and sword?

Grace Delivered

The Word, the voice of the Lord

Why do you have mercy on me?

Why am I not forsaken?

Grace Delivered

“It is Finished”, His life taken

Trial and God

Tiny droplets of apathy

Dripping from my heart

The walls are closing in

Fear is just the start

I ponder, wonder why?

He is There, He is Good

It's the Ground I walk on

By Grace alone I ever stood

Remember the sweet fruit

The Footsteps in the sand

Do not drown in despair

Look for His Hand

Truth

Buried in a sea of blankets

Lost in the depths of Dream

It’s the only way it’s true

Truth, an inconceivable truth

How can one love me so much

I hated him, Oh I hated him!

Yet he sought me, before him

He brought me to a place where

I would break free from pride

And cry out to him, Save me Father!

That moment the initiation of my soul.

No dream, but a pinching reality

Truth, The Almighty King walked

and Died on the face of this Earth

HE paid the ultimate price for Me

That payment washes my sin in blood

His Blood, perfect and Pure, God as Man

This is the roots of Truth and Love

Grow from those roots, tall like a sunflower

Stretch out in the Bright Warm Rays and

Photosynthesize into sanctification

Breathe the Truth, grow in it, and let it free.

Worldly Ways

High Winds

Naked Trees
Razor tounges
Sinful Ease

Dead walking
No Humility
Hungry Lust
Life a futility

Dark Earth
Could it be
Worldly ways
Hypocrisy!

Worth the Wait

To whose rhythm and beat,

does my heart passionately dance?

It has been proven, it is not mine

from trials of dreams and romance

Things didn’t go according to plan

Or at least, how I would have thought

My eyes focused on another image

I the student, have been taught

My heart has drafted it’s plan

The Lord, The Architect of all

Submit your work to Him

Lift your heart, he’ll hear your call!

Befriend Humility and Wisdom

Let the Lord establish your route

Receive the Gift of patience

This season, will yield its fruit

Do not lack trust, or be anxious

For the Lord has sealed my fate

So what do I do from this point?

Upon the everlasting Lord, I will wait!!

Dependent on Divine Love

Here is an open Window, a look at my heart

My words, an escape is this my last chance?

For through broken Glass, I see

fear and anxiety, my life at first glance

a twisted calamity, shadows of pride

O’ Father, I do not know your design

But I know there is a Tree of Grace,

The foot of it, my fears resign

I know better than to complain

How much more, what will break me

I see more storm clouds in the horizon,

Father, I wish you would just take me

I look forward to an eternity

Join with Christ, dance and rejoice

O’ Lord, whom should I fear?

For you saved me, not my choice

But it is not time for me to go

You Father, have a predestined plan

I have a calling, to protect my daughter

And to lead my son to become a man

Forgive me for more iniquities Father!

Shepard me Lord when trials rain

Lift my cup, asking for more and more

Grace! Until I am free from all worldly pain!

A Poem’s Draft.

The skull empties its thoughts,

My heart transposes into word,

Let my pen dance and bleed,

Symbolic emotion is delivered.

A Romance, dream, reality collage,

Words float, come drifting ashore,

I paint them on blank sheets paper,

working until my brain is sore.

I don’t paint with words alone,

weave together style and structure

Diligently squeeze in deep emotion,

now let the words flow, tightly cluster

Enthusiasm no doubt a writer’s high!

An Inspirational release of my insanity.

Every day, a new expression arrives.

My favorites are becoming vanity!

A harsh realization in each new draft;

the only time I ever feel safe at home,

is when sitting with an empty notebook

music blaring, drafting a new poem.

An old man and his spoon

An old man and his spoon

Sat there from 7 to Noon

5 long hours he had waited

He sat and then contemplated

Pacing patiently back and forth

Walking south, then to the North

he carried the spoon in his hand

Reasoning we would’nt understand

For Five hours he had to think

Pacing by the freshly emptied sink

Near by the dishwasher growling mean

A bowl for his spoon was becoming clean

A Heavy Burden

I picked up my life with my bare hands

It was awkward and heavy to hold

Brittle, it crumbled between my fingers

And was swept off into the wind

Leaving not a grain of dust to mend

I crawled back under my hard shell

Paint a smile for the world to see

Condemnation, a heavy wait to carry

But, HE didn’t let me pack this freight

In His mighty love, he lifted the weight

Do not stress what happens in the steps

Not the Journey, but the Destination we Seek!

His Word is written, the answers are there

Books such as John, Genesis, James and Psalms

Rest assured, life rests comfortably in His Palms.

A Heartship

I think I am falling, falling fast

Swept away by a strong current

My heart is still very fragile

The Timing could not be worse

Yet the rapids carry me away

Quickly pulling me downstream

I think I am falling, falling fast

To Various rocks I reach out

Try to cling and hold on for life

Slippery to the surface, no grip

I think I am falling, falling fast

Being pushed under by white caps

Panic sets in with realization

I cannot swim through this alone

The waters calm, the current breaks

HE appears before me, and with grace

Lifts me above the surface and speaks

“Yes my son you cannot survive this

alone, but you tread in my waters now,

and you will NEVER be alone”

My Reflection

Reference James 1:22-25

When I stare intently at myself

A reflection not always meek

Righteousness of God I’ve sought

Slow to anger, slow to speak

I see a spirit ready to be taught

O` Father! Convicting is your mirror

Rapid anger and a sharp tongue

Weapons of a deceitful heart

But my reflection is still young

And your Mercy, a daily start

My Face, staring back at me

Adjustments surely to be made

Husband and father I yearn to re-flect

A man, who remembers, does not fade

One who can lead and pro-tect

O` Father, help adjust my reflection

Thank you for I am not the man I was

But I’m not the man I yearn to be

Father I pray to be a man that does!

A reflection of His death on the tree

Daffodilius

*With apologies to William Wordsworth (Daffodils)

I floated happily as a bee

That dances on high o’er fields and flowers

When all at once I saw the tree

A man, whom perfect even his last hours

Upon the Cross, exhaled last breath

Freeing the Sinners in his Death

Repentance for what I have done

His binding Love at Calvary

That stretched over his son

The Lord has adopted me

As this never was my choice

For all of eternity I’ll rejoice

This blood washed away my sin

Full Atonement, my debt was paid

His Grace upon all men

His Death – His Choice – He obeyed

My sin killed him, twas not fair

But it was His love that kept him there

So on this dark and gloomy night

When trials and inequities hover

I gaze up to the Lord’s holy Light

not an inch his blood does not cover

When my name he did call

Daily reminder, Jesus paid it all